New Hair, Disney Nails and the Daily Struggles of Social Anxiety...

Hi lovelies...

This weekend I faced my fears. I got my haircut and my nails done! Many of you right now are probably thinking 'what's scary about getting your hair and nails done?? If anything that's a treat'... Well let me tell you..This is where social anxiety takes control. For me this was the first time ever of getting my nails done and the first time of getting my haircut *bar the occasionally cut by a close family friend* in over 5 years. Yes you read that right - I hadn't had my hair properly cut for 5 whole years.

Reading this sounds stupid..and believe me in my head it sounds stupid too. But the thought of having to firstly make an appointment, and then having to sit and make small talk with a human who I do not know overly well make's me feel literally sick to my stomach. But finally, I did it! I found someone who I could book via Facebook message rather then having to phone (if you to I have social anxiety try and find someone to do this - honestly makes life much easier)

The appointment was Saturday morning at 10am. I set an alarm for 8 but thanks to my anxiety I was up from 7 feeling like throwing up. The closer to 10 it got the more nervous I got resulting in shaking and sweating at the same time. When she finally arrived at my house all of the normal anxiety kicked in the struggling to speak because the lack of conversation topics, the blushing and shaking and the fiddling with absolutely anything to try and provide a distraction. Luckily for me my hairdresser was lovely, and I had my mum, sister and my boyfriend all around to support me (defo would recommend finding someone who can come to your house if you struggle with social anxiety).

Anyway, I survived!!!! I chose to get a trim, layers, thinning, and my fringe put back in and honestly my hair is so much lighter and nicer than it was before..finally hopefully it will be more controllable than it was!

Also my nails are the most adorable things ever!!!!! I tend to bite my nails when anxious so lets just say that she didn't really have much to work with but honestly the Disney look I went for really worked and makes me so so excited for my holiday to Disneyland Paris...only 7 days to go!

Thank you for reading, feel free to comment down below if there's anythings that you're scared of which you really shouldn't be! and feel free to follow me on twitter to find out when I post my next post - Probably a Disney planning and packing post!!!! @beckythellama


xoxoxoxo